E-mail Terbuka Buat Kawanku

Yesterday I have received an e-mail from a long lost friend.. dah lama tak jumpa, menyapa bagai tup tup dapat emel dia. This was part of his e-mail:

" satu bende lagi .. kat sini, kami semua mendoakan kau selamat dunia akhirat ..

macam2 cerita aku dengar .. aku harap semua x betul

lepas solah, kalau aku tak lupa, aku doa supaya kau sentiasa selamat

****** yang suruh aku doa banyak .. dia tak cite apa2 pun .. so aku pun tak tau apa2 la"

Jawapan mak ialah, diriku sangat terharu kerna rakan rakan lama masih mengingati dir ini and thanks for all your prayers and best wishes.

Only one thing I can tell now is that I have never been so much happier.

I have a loving and understanding long-term partner (kalau you nak tahu, weols dah bersama nearly 13 tahun dah), a good and relaxing job (okay, it's not a high-flying job but at least takdelah sampai pening kepala dan stress selalu), great friends to go out with and some spare money (kalau nak gi melancong from time to time).

I know it is hard to believe and understand (believing that mak ni bergelumang dalam noda dan dosa jah sokmo) but it's the reality that I am finally who I am now and finally too, I can be myself where I am now. No more sembunyi sembunyi nor ala ala pijak semut pun tak mati padahal dalam hati meronta ronta nak clubbing! **ops!

I don't know what you have been reading or hearing gossips about me BUT whatever it is, I am still me - the only thing that different now is that I am not who you think I was back then.

Keterbukaan itu penting and I am sure your heart and mind are open to "new" things in life.

And I hope you are not upset that I shared your message in my infamous blog inniew.

Welcome to my world (in case you also accidentally stumbled across this blog)!!!!

p/s The only thing that I am not happy about is visiting Malaysia - unfortunately I can't keep coming back and forth to visit family & friends as much as I want. If only I have my own private jet!!!! :) Mati beranganlaa mak!!!!